Same old same old

This trial is all just a blur. As I remember we are on day four of the deep freeze and no water. I just feel like crying. Mr must feel a lot worse than that, he is crawling around in the silt on the crawl space floor trying to defrost pipes. We still have no kitchen water, no bathing or upstairs bathroom, lots of frozen pipes and drains, and we are enveloped in cold since the heat is not working. Even if I could cook, I can't clean up without water. We have a little heat with plug ins, but the big system is not working.  We can't even leave here because once this stuff thaws there will be lots of water leaks that need to be dealt with. As I go around the house I see lots of damage from no heat and the cold. Furniture is cracking. There are cracks in the wall, doors and paint surfaces. The panels in the doors are separating from the frame of the door showing raw wood around the edges of the panels. Things that were painted and improved are now in bad shape again from lack of heat and the mess from hauling in tools and materials to try to fix the problems. I can't even think about the crack in my heart and psyche. I feel trapped. I just wish I could pick up and go somewhere else. I want to make like it is all not happening. I need to escape! This is all very painful, and draining. It is way too much work in a compact time frame. I think we both want out. We are incapable of what this is going to require.